It was dark.
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It was cold.
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Everything seems so… fragile.
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This body.
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This world.
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This life.
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I couldn’t grasp what surrounds me. My vision was blurry, my head ached so bad. I just want to continue lying in this… platform. What is this? Where am I?
I was surrounded by tiny blades of the ground. Moist, wet, and smells natural. Bit by bit, I opened my eyes, to see the big bright blue circle above me. It was full moon. A bright one also.
“Majestic” is the only word I could use to describe my feeling. I felt that I was blessed by only staring at it. I felt a strange energy flowing into me. Was it the moon’s doing? Was it something else? I didn’t know.
My vision became clearer as every second passed by. I began to identify my surroundings. Trees, trees, and more trees. Sound of water flowing also accompanied me. Surely, I was somewhere in a forest. Somewhere I didn’t know why and how I could get there. I couldn’t think anything as my head was still aching. Not mentioning this weird condition of my body being overwhelmingly tired.
At least I wasn’t in any dire situation. I just needed little bit time to rest.
With that, I closed my eyes, in hope to get better condition.
Life is not something that everyone appreciates. Some choose to end their own life, some choose to “sell” it just to get food and accommodation. Some decided to life their own life to the fullest, but instead using it as an excuse to harm others. Criminals, bad people, murderer, killer, you name it. Doing wrongdoings to other just because it’s something that they can do in their one chance of living.
Was it something that everyone really should appreciate? Was it something that precious that you should do anything to protect it? Or was it a futile attempt to create a concept, to prevent society from being against each other?
Soul is always believed to always need a vessel to stay exist, and the concept of life is believed when a soul finally found it’s vessel. Likewise, death is known as a condition where the soul finally leaves it’s vessel. The body is then declared “dead”, with no soul remains inside.
But, does it fulfils the truth? Does being “dead” always mean that your body doesn’t have any soul anymore? What about the phrase “dead inside”?
I felt my surroundings were getting warmer. Such a stimuli gave my body a reaction to start it’s mechanism. I began to respond by opening my eyes, only to meet a bright sky with blue. I moved my head to analyze my location. It was as expected, a forest with water source near me. Aside from that, I noticed the other parts of my body. My arm, hand, and it’s fingers, all in where it should be. Such a realization made me try to move them.
Weird. I seemed to have forgotten how to use my own body limbs. I could move it, but only a bit as I felt a very unfamiliar sensation flowing through my nerves. Did I get paralyzed? Did I fall from heights that I broke my spines? I began to panic as speculations popping out.
I took a breather, made several deep breathing. “I need to calm myself”, as I told myself to prevent any negative outcome. It was followed by training myself to move my body parts again. It was like you’re trying to walk while you’re still a 2 months old baby. Nevertheless, I need to move.
After a while, I managed to get my hands on… my hands. My senses were coming back in the weirdest way possible. To visualize, imagine unlocking each of your body limbs, like unlocking the access into your index finger, then middle finger, and so on. At least I had my hands back. Proceeding to other limbs wasn’t as hard as the first as you knew it’s more into a matter of “feeling” the limb first, then trying to control it by “feeling”.
As I began to make myself mobile, my belly made that familiar sound everyone knows. It was unknown how long I had been lying here, nor when was the last time I ate something. Hunger and thirst began to take over my mind. The water source I heard was very close to me, but it was going to be difficult to move myself there. Fortunately, I regain my arms back, so I can pull my body to the water source.
It was a fresh water. Probably the most fresh one I’ve had in my life. The water flows down carrying unique taste to those mineral water you get from mountains. I quickly resolved that I was somewhere in the mountain. Why I was here, I didn’t know. All I could think is to regain the control to my legs, so I could at least save myself some time to move around.
It took me an entire noon to study my legs back again. I could stand properly, and took a small walk. I needed to make myself a support, as it was very hard to keep myself up for more than three steps. But most importantly, I could save myself some energy. A small thing, but certainly a blessing for this condition.
Hunger made my vision hazy and my head aches. The constant feeling to pass out was lingering as I tried to find some food. I didn’t have any knowledge about forest or what lies inside. Only relying to my instinct to pick which thing that I could eat. For some reason, I could smell something from distance, and could determine if it’s particularly dangerous or not. In the end, I couldn’t determine if it was something harmful if I didn’t test it myself.
I woke up in the middle of the night again. I had a spectacular stomachache after eating some berries and fruits that I already put my suspicion upon. I had no other choices. It was my best bet and the only thing I could reach before my body passed out again.
Looking up, the moon was right above me. It’s a sight for sure. If the moon was a someone, I could bet that they are seeing me right into my eyes. It filled me with energy to live in. I could only hope that I could live another day to have this sight over and over again.
As I lay there, thoughts started to bug me as there were just so many question. “Who am I? What happened? Where is this place? How did I get here?”, and many other questions. It was something that I need to ask to this world. To find out the truth about these lingering questions, and to find my own purpose.
I stared into the moon for a while. I could feel something was up. This unknown connection between me and this celestial body. It was a sight to see indeed, that it made me feel relaxed. As my drowsiness and sleepiness kicking in, I closed my eyes in hope for a better tomorrow.
As my senses fading out, a vague sound echoed through the forest.
“Brother, what is that?”
